Happy new year everyone! I hope you all had fun on the evening of New Years Eve, if you celebrated it. I went to a house party with a few of my friends, hopefully I will have some pictures to show for it later, it was a great night and it was very fun. One of my friends got extremely drunk and, although somewhat amusing at times, he didn’t really know what he was doing and was making a bit of a nuisance of himself, along with the possibility of him drink-driving. He was stumbling around, being offensive, and acting ridiculous, yet he still genuinely thought he was fine and could drive. A harrowing testament to alcohol and it’s effects on us.
Needless to say, the host was a little upset, so three of us took him home, as we weren’t drunk and knew roughly where his house was. He was sick a few times in and outside of my friend’s car, but we got him home in one piece, and returned to the party afterwards, so I feel that we did a good job, especially finding his house when only 2 of the 3 of us only had a rough idea of the area, late at night, after a few drinks (the 3rd was the driver, who hadn’t drank obviously, but had no clue where the guy lived).
My drinks of choice on that particular night were Henry Westons Special Reserve Cider, Buckfast Tonic Wine and Strongbow Cider. I stuck to those, didn’t mix too much, and ended up taking a lot of alcohol with barely any effect, which surprised me due to my recent lack of alcohol-taking ability. I must say, I can’t recommend Henry Weston’s Special Reserve enough, in my opinion, it really is the best, and closest to “real”, cider you can buy, bottled in shops. And at 8.2% volume, it ‘does the job’!
Also, I’m starting my new job today, in about ten hours time. I’m man enough to admit that I’m terrified. I’m really worried that I won’t fit in, won’t grasp some of the important things in the job, will make mistakes, and will disappoint my family and employers. My family were very understanding when I quit my last job so I want to make it up to them by keeping this job up, and paying them board finally, to help them out since money is tight right now. I guess I just want to do my parents proud.
[Sentimental, off-topic life-story, skip if bored] After all, I’ve always tried to do this. Being the youngest in the family, and the only boy in my generation, I grew up having the bar set by my sisters, and always trying to better it. I would hear my mum complain about my sisters after they’d done something wrong, listened to their music loudly, done something disappointing, acted like typical “teenagers”, went out with guys that my parents didn’t approve of… I suppressed all of my instincts to let it all go and be imperfect, and set out to be the best I could be, and more importantly, being the competitive guy that I am, better than my sisters. I was the goody-goody, the only one of siblings that passed the entrance exam to the Grammar School, I never had girlfriends, always listened to music on headphones, tried to be friendly and helpful at all times and do well at school… To impress my parents, to do them proud… Then eventually that began to collapse of late, as the pressure to be the good guy was too much. I slacked off at school, but it didn’t matter so much since I was at a level of education that nobody else in the family ever did. I started going out and drinking every weekend, taking more and more liberties in general life, and being more moody, just letting my emotions out, sometimes negatively. But my desire to honour and make my parents proud is still there, if only because I don’t have the desire to make myself proud, as I don’t have anything to be proud in the lifestyle of modern society. But my parents do. They want me to be a normal kid who ’succeeds’ by getting a job and supporting his family. So that’s what I’ll do. For them. [End of sentimental life-story]
So, where is this blog headed in 2010?
Honestly, in a very similar direction to where it’s been going towards the end of 2009 when I picked it back up.
- Life/Personal: Anecdotes, philosophical thoughts on life, learning who I am as a person, my progress on my job.
- Gaming/Technology/Reviews: Games that I’ve been playing lately, reviews, thoughts, previews, news.
- Sports: Formula One rumours, thoughts on events and races.
- Rants: My philosophies and reactions to recent/not so recent events.
- Music/Guitar: New music I’ve discovered, written, songs I’ve learnt or written on guitar.
2010 is a new year, and with that I have a few goals to focus on. Some may call these “resolutions”, but I prefer to just call them goals. They may be big or small, long or short-term, important or just to amuse myself. A feature of 2010 in this blog may or may not be reports back on my progress on these goals.
These goals include, but may not be limited to (in no particular order):
- Save enough money to either go to university, or travel a little in 2010/2011.
- Modify my old guitar with gold hardware, new pickups, set it up, and generally make it something other than a space-waster.
- Get myself in a state where I can be happily topless on the beach by the summer, which includes the following 3 points:
- Do everything in my power to get rid of the spots that have plagued my back and upper arms for years (puberty thing, not hygiene. I wash regularly, and well.)
- Work out a little and generally get more fit. Work towards toning upper body more.
- Tan myself as much as possible (something which doesn’t usually happen, I tend to burn!)
- Work more on my album and hopefully complete a demo version of it by the end of the year.
- Improve my overall confidence, which can be done by completing some of the goals above, and by finding things that improve my appearance.
- Have a less serious short-term relationship, rather than the seriousness and commitment that my previous girlfriend craved. This time it would be on my terms, with a girl who I genuinely would like to be with and find attractive, rather than last time, which was a play on my emotions by making me feel sorry for her, then roping me in with lies and threats about herself.
- Go to Download or a similar music festival with a few of my friends.
- Fix my sleeping pattern.
- Work towards taking a lot of time out and travelling. I mentioned this before, but it really is important to me. I know I’m not old, but I’m burnt out already.
So I have my work cut out! But I’m more motivated to do this than I would be to do some of the more classic new year’s “resolutions”, e.g. to stop eating chocolate and similar things.
So that’s what I’m up to. Hopefully I achieve my goals. I honestly just want to fit in and succeed in life, but my brain doesn’t let me do that so much!
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